HELL YEH

Today I have been to see my surgeon as a follow up after my mastectomy, this appointment is so they can check my scar is healing and give me e results of the test that would have been done one my breast had been taken off on the tumours


So September 2012 I was diagnosed as having two tumours 14cm apart and one measuring 14mm and the other 9 mm

Well today 12th of April 2013 I have been given THE ALL CLEAR the tumours that were taken have already been killed by the chemo and all they had left was scar tissue there were no cancer cells left

Massive smile on my face

So all that feeling of being ill was well worth it, as I have responded to the chemo so well I will not need any further treatment like radiotherapy.

I should be over the moon but me and mike can't quite take it in , over the past 8 months my life has been consumed by cancer , even before if I class my mum in that and now I'm cancer free , ok I have lost my hair and a boob but that has not really fazed me , i have a left arm that i now will have to treat like glass for the rest of my life but for now I just have to get my head around having my life back , which may be a bit harder than you think as I now have no security blanket of the regular treatments , I will get a review every 6 months with the christie and again with Leighton, I will also be looking in to reconstruction in the near future and my possibilities are far greater now I do not have to have radiotherapy,

I will also need to get my head around going back to work , which I really want to do but it's still a massive step

I'm going to have hydrotherapy for my arm movement and I will be starting a group session about moving forward,

But for now and today I will have a little celebration with a big fat pizza and some ice cream ( I will look in to losing my chemo weight one my chest has healed better )

In July I have signed Olivia and I up for the race for life in Manchester Heaton park so I will be hassling you for sponsorship and if you want to join me please feel free.

I AM NOW A SURVIVOR XX oh and my hair is growing back lol

A week later

Well it's been a week after my mastectomy and I can't believe how blooming quick that has gone,, I came home on the Thursday and I have had to do excersise straight away they had me doing these on the ward before I left,
as I mentioned in my last blog I came home with my drain sticking out of my left side, over the next 5 days I had stood  on it , pulled the tubes apart when I rolled over on the settee, slept really carefully as not to try to pull it out or strangle my self with it , and on Monday I got to go back to the ward and have it removed , I can not describe how that felt to any of you who have never had it done but it was the strangest feeling even odder than only having one boob.

I have got really good movement in my arm , I really expected not to be able to get dressed my self but as long as I do not have to put my arm over my head to high I'm fine,
Even though I have good movement they tell me I'm not allowed to drive for the next 3/4 weeks or as soon as I'm able to do an emergency stop safely, I'm already crawling the walls as I did not go out at all when I had my drain in as I was not walking down the street with my little pink bag they gave me to carry it in and as some of you may have seen I went straight to costa once it was out.

The feeling I now have a week after is strange , all down the back of my arm tingles and is very sensitive , I have been told its due to the nerves being stretched and damaged while I was under, I do not have any pain across my scar ( which by the way is a massive smile shape ) , it is difficult to get comply at night but its a minor thing to have to deal with I suppose. I have been told that they put loads of anaesthetic all around the site and as that wears off u get the feeling like u get at the dentist, I have no feeling under my arm and in my arm pit, that may never come back and now I have to look after my left arm as though it was fragile glass, no damage to my arm or hand at all , no heavy lifting not injecting ,blood test or blood pressure to be taken from that arm for the rest of my life.
I have a load of appointments to go to over the next few months.

Today I was given a present from one of the school mums that I have got to know during this whole mess , I have found I have lost friends and family but I have found new one to replace the gaps and these people fill the gaps far better than what was filling them before ,